a little bit more personal

I feel like being a little bit more “raw” and personal with my post today, I guess mostly it’s because of what has been on my mind the past few days, and writing for me has always been a great vent. I feel like when I am able to write my thoughts out that it is a way of me dealing with whatever is going on in and my life, and even at times it’s my way to let go.

I feel like in a lot of my friendships that I have had that I invested more than I have ever received from it. I feel like in so many of those friendships that I have been the convenient friend, or the dependable friend [in the sense that I will always be there whenever they need something but not vice versa], and quite honestly I am getting a little bit tired of it all. In high school I know that there were a lot of people like this in my life, people that no matter how awful they treated me, or how much they neglected me as a friend that I would always rush to their side when they needed someone. It wasn’t until I met Scott that I was really able to see that. He was so brutally honest with me about some of those people because he saw that I deserved to have so much more than what they offered. Even in that knowledge, I don’t think I really understood until college how really untrue some of those friendships were. I met amazing people while I was at Rhema, people who are the greatest friends that I have ever had the chance to know, and my eyes were open to see a lot of the things that I was missing. I am so blessed to have those people in my life still to this day, and it makes me sad that I don’t get to see them as much as I wish I could, but they are forever the greatest friends I have.

I feel like I am in a place in my life right now where some people around make me feel again like I felt in high school. Feeling like I am not good enough to be someone worthy of their friendship, or that I am “second-string” in the sense that if nothing better comes along then I will consider you. Almost like a closet friend, meaning that you are my friend as long as no one else is around to know that you're my friend. Sometimes it feels to me like with people that it’s this front that gets put up, in the sense that they will be nice to you face to face but when it comes down to it, they don’t really care about you. Really, I know that this shouldn’t be even important to me because my life is fulfilling in its own right, but I guess some times you can’t help but feel.

I feel like with those people that they almost try to make you feel bad for being yourself, and that you should apologize for who you are because you don’t meet their standard, or that you aren't fun enough to be around them. I am sorry, but I am not going to apologize for being me, I happen to like who I am. I am not as weak as I was in the past when I would let people treat me like dirt. I am a much stronger person now and I have grown up a lot. Growing up doesn't mean I am not who I was because I have remained true to who I am. I am still the same old me, nothing has changed about that. I have the same silly fun side to me, I still love to giggle, and have a good time, never taking things too seriously. I still love with all my heart, and if you are my friend you can guarantee that as long as you offer the same to me, that nothing is more to me than keeping you in my life. So if you don’t love it, then leave it because I really think I am past that point of caring. I am not going to feel sorry or feel bad for being ME! I love me, and there are plenty of people in my life who love me for me too!! I am not going to even try to make things work with those types of people because there are too many good things & good people in my life that I don't need all that extra stuff weighing me down.

So, there is my vent. Like I said, helps me get it out, & let it go.

if this can't make you smile...

...then there is seriously something wrong with you!!!


This is my baby nephew Kaden and I just love him to pieces that I have to share this adorable picture with you! He is my sister Pam's baby and he is a big 3 month old now. Can you tell I am a VERY proud auntie?!! Have a happy winter weekend!!

6 amazing years

Six years ago my life forever changed. On that wonderful Wednesday, December 11th, 2002 I started dating the most wonderful person that I have ever known, and thus began the amazing journey that I am still on today. Now, I know now that we are married that it’s not our official anniversary, and we don’t celebrate it anymore, but I have to acknowledge what this day means to me.

Even before the day that Scott asked me to be his girlfriend, I knew that he was someone incredibly special to me, and even if I couldn’t pin-point all that he meant I knew that his role in my life would completely change me. When he asked me to be his girlfriend that night, it is a moment that I will never ever forget. I remember exactly how I felt and everything about that moment as it is just happened yesterday. It was such a special moment filled with the newness of young love. I remember being so giddy and filled with butterflies that I could hardly fall asleep that night! Scott bought me a teddy bear and gave it to me that night, and it was such a cute thing that I still have today that brings me back to that moment. It’s amazing to me that the Lord had completely planned out the adventure that we would face together, and how that moment was the beginning of His wonderful plan for us.

I never would have thought that day how being with Scott would enrich my life, and make me happier beyond my wildest imagination. I never would have thought that in him I would find my very best friend who would be so loving and loyal to me through thick, thin, good, bad, long distance, and any other thing I could throw at him. He is the most wonderful person I have ever met and I am so blessed to call him my husband. The past 6 years that I have spent getting to know him and love him have been the greatest time of my life, and the past 6 months of being his wife is beyond anything that I could ever describe in words. I am so blessed that my Heavenly Father created my soul mate in Scott. That He went out of His way to create in him all the things that I would ever want or need, and so much more. I am so thankful that I have someone in my life to show me the constant love regardless of whatever comes. I love Scott more and more every day, and I appreciate him more every day, and I am so blessed to have someone who loves me for every part of who I am, but more importantly that he loves the Lord with every part of who he is. I can’t wait for the next 6 years!!

i've been upgraded!!

Yes, it’s true I have upgraded big time from winter 2007. All thanks to my beautiful new townhouse & our wonderful two car garage!! Winter is officially here in Minnesota and we have got a few inches of snow over the last 3 days, and I am so happy to pull my car into my garage and not have to think about scraping and brushing inches of snow off of it the very next day. It’s a beautiful thing!! Last year we closed on our house in January and Scott got to live there alone until the wedding, and every time we got snow last year and I was scraping off my car in the early morning with wind chills below zero, I would think about how unfair it was that he got to use our garage and I was stuck parking in the driveway at my parents house! So it goes without saying that I am so happy to have “upgraded” this year and have my very own garage!! It makes winter a little easier to deal with. Now only if we could come up with a solution for those pesky slippery streets….

touchdown!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One of the many things that Scott has introduced into my life is the love of football. I never grew up watching it or enjoying it, or really even having a desire to learn or get into it, but that has changed since I started dating Scott. It actually really wasn’t until after I moved home from Rhema that we really started watching it together every Sunday. I don’t know if it is because in our earlier years of dating, he would do whatever I wanted to do [like any boyfriend would] and I never would choose to watch football, regardless of the reason I am glad that we started this “tradition”.

I used to think it was weird that girls enjoyed watching football with their boyfriend/husband because to me, it never seemed intriguing. As I started to watch it with Scott it become fun to me because it was something he enjoyed watching, and so I wanted to learn to enjoy it too so that it would be a fun thing for us to do together. Now, it is something that we do every Sunday, and it is even better now that we have our own home. We snuggle up on the couch & arm chair, and watch it all afternoon long on Sunday. It is one of the days we actually get to spend together, and I find myself looking forward to it because it is so mellow and just a nice relaxing time [and I usually get to make something yummy like queso for us to enjoy!!].

However, we are a house divided. We both have two very different opinions on our favorite teams & quarterbacks. Mine is Tom Brady & the New England Patriots, of course, not only because he is GORGEOUS, but because he can throw a pigskin like no one else, and the Patriots are dominate!! Scott’s favorite quarterback is……ELI MANNING, and his team is the New York Giants! Now if you watched the superbowl last year you know why we disagree so harshly on this issue. Scott has had a lot of fun this year teasing me since TB is injured for the season, and the Giants aren’t doing too shabby [although I would never admit to saying that]. Honestly, we don’t really fight about it, but it’s fun to tease each other and have some disagreement over it, keeps life interesting.

So, tell me, do you side with my opinions or Scott’s?

Grandpa

to my grandpa:

i can't believe it's already been a whole year that you have been gone. today doesn't make me sad, but it makes my heart happy to know that you have been in the presence of my Jesus for a whole year. i am sure that it hasn't felt that long for you, as there is so much wonder to take it and so much to be in awe of. it makes me so happy to know that you are whole in every way possible, to know that your body is no longer frail and filled with the pain of cancer, but you are now entirely complete in the presence of our God!

i remember last year when my dad called me at work to tell me the news that you were no longer here on earth with us. when i picked up the phone and i heard my dad on the other end before he even spoke a word i knew that you had passed. my dad said to me, "grandpa passed away this morning, but it's ok." through the brokenness in his voice i knew that he was happy that you had met our maker, but sad that he would never see you in the flesh again. as i sit in the same desk that i received that phone call in a year ago, i still feel a bit of the sadness that i felt that day. i remember thinking that day that you wouldn't be here on my wedding day. that brought so much sadness to me, and even though you weren't there in the flesh, i know that you were very much with me on my special day. i know that you saw the flowers, my dress, our family, the ceremony, and i hope you loved it as much as i did!

at your memorial service, the one thing that everyone said your legacy was is the fact that you loved your God, loved your family, and that you worked hard to instill those values in your family. your legacy is still very much alive today and your family is still growing! among those additions are two new great-grand babies, and a new "grandson". your legacy will always live on in your family as we all continue to live a life committed to love as you did.

grandpa, i miss you, i love you, and i can't wait to hug you and laugh with you in heaven someday!

loving you always,
[your last granddaughter/the caboose of the family]
kimberly ann

humor in the daily news

today i was checking foxnews.com [that is where i get my news from] and i came across this story that i found to be wacky, funny, & a little sad all at the same time. now, the situation itself isn't entirely funny [although the context of it did make me smirk] but the last sentence in the article made me laugh hysterically.

here is the article i read:
PORT ST. LUCIE, Fla. — A man faces a domestic battery charge after allegedly hitting his girlfriend with a sandwich as she was driving.

Police said the 19-year-old man became angry and hit the woman in the arm and face with a sandwich, knocking her glasses off, as she was driving along Interstate 95 on Friday.

The victim nearly lost control of the car because she couldn't see the road. Her boyfriend then allegedly ripped off the rear-view mirror and used it to shatter the windshield.

He was arrested, jailed and later freed on $7,500 bail.

Police haven't said what type of sandwich was involved.

...you have to admit that makes you smile.