is it okay to be just me???

I’m gonna have an honesty moment here.  Ok, maybe not an honesty moment since this will be a whole post, but I’m pretty sure you catch my drift.  Sometimes I’m afraid of my blog.  Yes, I said it, I’m afraid of my blog.  Why you ask? Because sometimes, I just don’t know what to say.  Correction: I know what to say but I don’t know how it will be received.  Any of this making sense? Yah I didn’t think so.  Let me back track a bit.

I first started blogging back on Xanga  (anyone remember back that far?) my senior year of high school.  It was the Facebook of that day, and I would blog about all the high school things that were going on in my life at that time.  I have always thoroughly enjoying writing, I journaled religiously throughout high school and blogging quickly became something I enjoyed.  I continued blogging on Xanga sporadically throughout my college years, and it was hard to keep up on once Myspace and Facebook came along.  I actually just went back and dusted off my Xanga account the other day, and I am honestly thankful that I used it as much as I did during those late teenage years of my life.  I really enjoyed gong back through all my posts and reading my thoughts at those times in my life.  I don't always remember the details, and even if I do, its good to read through how I felt at those times.  Life changes so fast, that it can be hard to really capture all those details, and blogging has been a great tool for me to re-live all those moments.

Fast forward to 2008 when I started blogging here on Blogger.  I was a newlywed and missed blogging all my thoughts and experiences in life.  I figured what better time to get back into then right as we were starting our new life together.  I had hoped to be able to share a lot of what our new life as husband and wife, the good things that happened, the bad things we faced, the amazing God things that we experienced, and all the days in between.  I started off pretty good as I browse through my earlier posts, but slowly began neglecting by blog.  About a year ago I started finding all these amazing home decorating, DIY blogs and my blogging purpose had been renewed!! I was so inspired and wanted to try my hand at some of the great projects that I had seen all over the place.  Since that time, so many wonderful people have stopped by my blog, commented on my projects, and some have even been kind enough to follow along with me.  I find that SO cool that you would think that my blog is worthy of your time.  I have loved being inspired by others ideas, and getting to know so many wonderful people through blogging.  I hope that some of you following feel the same way about me.

All this has brought me to today…. sometimes I struggle with the thought of how to combine my initial hopes for blogging and my renewed thrifty DIY purpose of blogging into this one blog.  I sometimes feel like if I do blog about my marriage or my day to day life, that I am somehow letting down those of you how found my blogs through the projects I have shared, and expect me to share more of those ideas, but if all I ever do is just blog projects, I feel like I am letting myself down for not really capturing all the memories I had hoped to.  See where it gets hard?  I really want to find that balance of both, but still make it enjoyable for others to read along with me on my daily life journeys.  

I guess I said all this to say,  that you will probably see more posts about my life in the upcoming days. I hope you won't find me too boring, or choose to not follow along anymore.  I usually don't get many comments on my personal posts, and that's ok because it's truly a post for me if nothing else.  I hope that there will be things that you find relate-able, after all we all face the same types of challenges, and joys in life.  I guess i just really I don't want everything I post to fall into just one category, I truly want this blog to change as I change, and follow me through all the things that life brings my way.  Someday I know that I will blogging about my kids, and my life as a parent...I hope you'll stick around with me for that!!  I definitely will continue to post my revamps and creative attempts, its very much a part of who I am!! 

Thanks for reading and following along in life with me,  it means more to me than you could ever know!  Most of all, I hope that its ok with you that I want to be just me.  After all, I think I'm a pretty cool person. :)